How much relevance does Roman history have to our own time? Just look at a thread like this and see how much passion there is for people who have been dead for 2,000 years ago.
Until very recently, I have been a real ignormus (not that I know much better now) about Roman history, and thought that Caesar was simply an evil tyrant who killed democracy. Wow, now I know that things are much more complex.
I still don't know how I should judge Caesar or Cicero, but passion with which people hate or love is quite fascinating.
I've been particularly interested in Cicero, because he's quite interesting guy. Re Caesar, we are probably judging him based on our imagination of him rather than who he really is. But with Cicero, it's more concrete.
I'm not all that much put off by his personality (coward, hypocrite, vain, full of himself, etc). In HBO Rome forum, he seems to be universally hated, which is a bit surprising (well, maybe not). Sure, it can be rather embarrassing, but I also find myself smiling at his foibles. I laughed when Cicero wrote to Atticus (about his nephew telling around how Caesar should watch out for Cicero) that he would have been concerned if Caesar had not known him to be coward.
What disappoints me most about him is his total lack of concern for the common people of Rome. That there was popularist movement itself indicates that the feeling of social injustice was not totally a foreign concept in ancient Rome.
I am not sure if he has always been Optimate or was driven toward them by Catilina (both sound convincing), and I don't know if there could be a third way, but anyway, his so-called Concordia isn't much of concord since it concerns only two exclusive classes.
In any case, it seems that opinion on Cicero will always be colored by opinion on Caesar. Most of the time, I am on the side of liberalism, social democracy, and for oppressed people, so I should be with the populares. But despite all the good things that Caesar was trying to enforce, I am not sure how sincere Caesar or other populares (Clodius, Catiline) was about their cause. We can't be sure since Caesar died soon after, but my feeling is that Caesar was following Alexander's footsteps rather than the Gracchi's. Besides, no matter how it was name only it was, it was still representational republic that could have been reformed as it did during earlier class struggle. In the end, Caesar resulted in despotism, from which the world did not recover for more than 1,500 years. So when it comes to Caesar's assassination, I just feel bemused.
I think Cicero said in his letter even before the civil war that there must be means to remove Caesar other than a civil war. So I can see how Cicero can justfiy a killing of a tryant.
Sorry for rather long mumblings.