Weekend anguish.
My first blog entry, who would have thought that. Not me at least. Not a chance.
Well here it is. I thought I'd share some of my thoughts with the community, for what reason I do not know.
Anyway todays subject is lectures. As I'm writing this I'm taking a short break from working on the lecture I'm to give a high school class tomorrow morning. It's only the second time I'm giving a lecture and this one is far shorter then the last one. That was a few weeks back and I had spent the whole weekend working on it and it went all very well. The students even enjoyed history for once, or they tricked me into believing that. As I was thanked by their teacher after the lecture I made some hints that I would love to give more lectures if there was a chance.
No need to say I got another one now, and until just a few days ago I thought there would be more coming rapidly, it seems like they think I did a great job. But very much have changed. First of all the lecture I'm working on right now isn't very good. How am I to squeeze in Romes infrastructure and history in 30 minutes? And I'm probably the only one stupid enough to use my only day of for this kinda stuff. Well I have a plan at least, it's not perfect but it might just work. I need to polish it still thought.
Secondly the high school was burnt to the ground, obviously it was arson. Ok, there are 2 buildings left but they've got their hands full there now I hardly think they have time for me running around asking for work, not to mention that both my younger sister and brother will have to spend their remaining school time in barracks. I must admit that the place that i studied at for 3 years just doesn't exist anymore is fairly disturbing too. Yes that last thing was rather selfish, but it keeps coming back to me. It makes me feel old odd as it may sound.
Beside that I'm doing double courses at Uni and that is actually starting to take it's toll. I'm tired. It feels like life is going in slow motion, funny as it sounds. I regularly get the feeling that what I did just a day or two ago was weeks ago. Can't help it and it's disturbing. Just this semester and the next and it'll all be fine. I'm already made it far past the bets my classmates had concerning when I would give up
And there's that girl I met (Well in all honesty that adds a lot to the tension right now) and all my friends I want to spend time with. Does anyone have a time machine, I need it badly?!
Anyway enough of the boring stuff for you all, and enough of a break for me, back to work!
Cheers everyone
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