First Few Days...
My first two days of work have been tough. Yesterday was bad because I had practically no sleep for the two nights before that. Today went fairly well, and I am really starting to enjoy it...but I'm still hoping that I made the right choice, because I'm having "darker moments" of extreme doubt...which I really don't understand. I go from feeling like this job is the best thing that could have happened to me to feeling like I've had a bad feeling about it all along and I should have listened to myself and now I'm "stuck"... I did kind of want for this job *not* to work out so I could just take the job at the Market and everything would be easy...but this job is perfect in so many ways!! The hours are great, the pay is OK (not great, but not terrible either), my boss and coworkers are *really* laid back, and so far the job has been really easy and relatively safe as well.
I really don't understand these moments of doubt...it feels almost like I'm bipolar or something. The past week has been downright awful...I don't know if it's hormones or what. I am feeling pretty crummy right now as a matter of fact. It doesn't feel like blood sugars...because blood sugars cause different symptoms than this. I'll be feeling great, and relaxed, and carefree one minute, and the next I won't even be able to remember ever having been happy or imagine ever being happy again!! This SUCKS!! And I really don't know what's causing it, which double sucks!!!
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